Come on Darling close your eyes
15/03/2026
Hi everyone! How are we all doing? Things sure have gotten scary in the last few weeks 
nervous chuckle. I've sort of been doing my best not to think of the state of the world right now, there's not a lot I can do about it after all. I did get my car filled up the other night though. Postage and travel are about to get very expensive, but I'll be fine down here in New Zealand.
My life has once again become very business as usual as I've been trying really hard to save money. I did go to an international tea tasting event a few weeks ago with a lolita friend I hadn't seen in two years which was absolutely lovely. Every year my city hosts one of these events where you can try teas and coffees (and some hot chocolates) from various countries! My favourites are always the hot chocolates lol. I also ran into another lolita friend I hadn't seen in over a year at a boutique in Wellington! The shop girl took photos of us together but wouldn't give me the photos
I've really been missing meeting up with my lolita friends and going to meets. The last actual meet I attended was the Vivienne Westwood meet a whole year ago! And with any luck the next meet I'll be attending will be OUAF in Melbourne in July. Ahh it's just not fair! I have no one to dress up with. I really am so jealous of lolitas who have a friend nearby who wears the same substyle as them and even has similar interests outside of lolita! But in saying that I wouldn't wish being a sweet lolita in rural New Zealand on anyone lol. I still haven't seen Kamikaze Girls but maybe I should get onto it as I too am a rural lolita who feels a bit out of place. Though growing up in it is different to moving there once you are already a lolita.
Have you seen that Sleepyland's Fancy! Mahou Shoujo Patisserie is getting a re-release?! I've kicked myself for the last five years for not picking that dress up when it first dropped. But I was still new to lolita and didn't know if I wanted to invest in it. I WAS WRONG!!! So when i heard of it's re-release in January I've been saving like a maniac. 
It's gonna be so expensive but as someone who only buys 1 dress a year I say it's worth it. I recently shortened the pink polka dot JSK I made which I think helped the shape a lot. I need to seriously re-work my lolita JSK pattern, it's kinda outdated and I think I could make a way better one now.
Easter is coming up! Probably my favourite holiday aesthetic wise. I've already stuffed my face with a bit of early easter chocolate. I was hoping there might be like a cute Hello Kitty easter egg mug set or something I could snap up this year but no dice. Not like I need more junk anyway. I've started writing out my easter cards to my penpals! I'm hoping to get them sent out on Wednesday. As the world gets scarier, the price of postage goes up and the safety of mail going into/out of the USA gets more unreliable I may have to pull back on my penpalling. It's really not worth it sending letters I work so hard on into the void (and pay a lot for in postage) for then to just get lost or torn up by US customs. I'm sending photocards and stickers not crack cocaine you asshole!! It'd be nice to have a penpal in Australia or Japan maybe...
Did you get to watch the Nu: Carnival anniversary livestream? I tried by best to stay up to watch it but fell asleep partway through. No matter though as it will be up on YouTube for a limited time. Please watch it here if you missed it! It was so much fun auugh reminds me just how much I love these characters. The new animated PV is ADORABLE! To see everyone's first meetings in motion like that ahhh. And the announcement of a collaboration between Nu:C and Nitro+Chiral???? Insane. My two favourite BL franchises at once. Oh my god. How will I survive? Will I survive? I'm so happyyy
I guess we're already onto media, so I'll do a quick round up. I've been re-reading and catching up on Everything for Demon King Evelogia to celebrate the English physical mange coming out soon.
Eve and Gozu are so cute. It looks like the manga it nearing it's final arc as the hero creeps closer to the couple. I hope they have a happy ending! I've been trying to preorder it but all of the sites I usually use don't have it available and I really don't want to order it in person at my local bookstore. I don't have a lot of shame but I have enough to think twice about doing that. I also saw Iron Lung at the movies which was extremely good. I really do recommend it. I also watched The Menu which was crazy and I also highly enjoyed. I'm also back on playing Lamento. I started Asato's route from the very beginning and I'm really enjoying it. I love Asato so much. I'll probably go read some more after I'm finished this.
I find myself more and more wanting to escape into the safety of my hobbies and mundanity. I want to cook for my friends and wear nice dresses. I want to sit on the grass and listen to music. We were all made to play and share food and make and dance. I've actually had a pretty major relapse into panic disorder over the last couple months. It's been quite hard but indulging in my hobbies and making small, irrelevent goals for myself has helped. Hopefully next blog I will be out of disorder again.
Until next time!
